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Dont look for me, I’ll get ahead, Remember darling, Don’t smoke in bed

My life is a complicated place at the moment. I won’t share too much, but essentially it boils down to my being me not necessarily making other people happy, even though they’re really trying. And they are *really* trying and were there some kind of medal that actually meant a fucking thing they would deserve about 10.

Things are irritatingly bittersweet at the moment too.  A person that I care a great deal about and whom I have regarded as at the very least having friendly feelings toward me is quite bluntly being a weird twat at the moment. I don’t know if he’s chanelling a small child, going through a further adventure of his midlife crisis (of which his behaviour toward me may well have been partly down to), or just being a cock. Its relatively recent and seems to be over agressiveness combined with being a mardy-arse.  This comes as I have spent the better part of two months composing a letter to him to be honest about how much I do care. Part of me thinks “fuck you” but the bigger part of me says regardless I’m still going to give him the letter and if it is goodbye forever (which seems highly likely) then so be it.  Sad as that makes me.
But my protective loyalty toward him regarding his behaviours is diminishing every second that he is a total ass (though it won’t diminish total because despite my very bestest attempts not to I do care).  He’s just being a twat frankly.

I used to think you understood, taught me right and learnt me good

I’m currently waiting to start writing my final biology assignment. Waiting because I don’t know how many words its supposed to be since mcot hath failed to put that on the question sheet and he is on holiday till Tuesday*. Continue Reading…

Just so, you could cash in on a good thing, Before I’d realised your game

Well my biggest assignment is gone done. I’m going to hand it in on Monday. Providing I remember it along with the stupidly large library books that I chose to take out of the college library.

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If I be waspish, best beware my sting

Right am going to be quite strict with myself and have a week and a bit self-enforced ban from blog and Facebook (Twitter is less time eating, as is Flickr, oh and if you’re in a nosy mood I’m playing around with Formspring too).

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And holding back ain’t gonna do no good

There are some things I’m not good at. Saying thank you is one of them. Especially when I really properly mean it. Continue Reading…

And the Sunday sun shines down on San Fransisco bay, and you realise you can’t make it anyway

Not much sun shining down “up North”* it has to be said. Got to college okay, but then had to come home again after JNBT was late to the lesson (having been sat in traffic for 2hours), and then college decided to close. Continue Reading…

You can’t read a robot’s mind, can’t expect vultures to be kind

Just so someone can swear at their screen and shake their head in a pitying fashion at me, worry about my eyesight and mental health herein is my list of…

Inappropriate Crushes

How inappropriate you think they are depends largely on 1) your worldview 2)your eyesight 3) your sexual orientation* 4) your psychological well-being…

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Awooganess

So first off my presentation went good. The day started quite cack as it was supposed to be the morning and I (and my pet audience) were supposed to go into JNBT’s communications* class for two of his class doing presentations and mine. Continue Reading…

Hmmm.

My jolly nice biology teacher (herein referred to as JNBT*) mentioned today that, for reasons best understood by marketing people who have only just found the

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